huh!

syg asyik hungwy jeee..huh!.ajak masak2 chicken chop, nyum, myboyfriend can cook..hehe..i truly can say that, coz it IS true..heeeee, had a late night last night, lepak2 dgn kawan2 syg, seperti piau (one of my mentor for thesis now), amir (yg tak percaya syg pandai masak), asap (yg so in love dgn gf nya), it's been a while since we balik almost subuh selepas syg n kawan2nya berkaraoke yg melemaskan kasuma dgn suara2 yg kurang "enak" hihihihihihihi, jgn mara :D

pastu kelaparan sbb asyik nyanyi2 je, pastu g had late-late-late dinner/supper at Uptown sambil dgr cite2 interesting piau tentang his experience as a lecturer yg makes me feel like looking forward to become one though I am so shy, even to sing in front of kawan2, inikan pulak nak bagi lecture to students yang mungkin agak ramai..tapi takpela, i'll figure that out later..on what i want to become one day :)

when it comes to his friends, syg cpat sgt sad2 if he reminiscent his life with his friends dekat kolej, and i can see his soft n sweet side yg sgt comel sbb die syg kawan2 die. :)

tapi ade kawan syg yg bakal kahwin seperti nal (yg sgt suke ejek kasuma pendek, taula amy tinggi..huaaaaa) n kawan2 syg yg lain seperti kown (yg happily waiting for his first new born baby), miju (takutla nak komen miju, miju gawang! tapi fun), veron (yg sgt caring tentang syg, selalu cal2 tny khabar), yus (yg syg rasa tgh hilang n asyik quiet2 je, menyepi, huuu)...

kasuma rasa nak kena masak ni sbb lapa, for me masak is a big deal which I only do when there is something special, cause MOST of the time we eat take-outs.lots of it.it has become part of mylife.seriously.

It's our 4th year Anniversary

come to think of what have happened for the past 4 years knowing him, makes me realise that time flies and it does fly real fast..we've known each other basically for 5 years, with the extra years rejecting him :P and play the tarik tali game..he's my first love, my first boyfriend, my first everything, and with him everything happens and come in a milestone of happiness and some bitterness and a whole lot of joy, support and encouragements, be it mentally and physically.he's the perfect him for me as I knw that he loves me unconditionally..I know.I am sure.I love u syg, so much2.

when my arwah abah passed away, he was the one who tries a lot to make me feel better as the whole family is like paralysed with the emotion running on a high volume and if it needs a breaker, it would be to be slapped real hard and realised that time will just move and keep on moving..I miss u so much it breaks to realised that i cant never hear your laugh or touch you anymore.it hurts.badly.

thinking of our first date, syg, igt tak syg lupe tutup lampu kereta ayah syg yg park kat parking taman k.l.c.c. dari siang n cannot start and pastu bila dah bole start kita kena drive sambil dgr bunyi alarm yg tak bole off sambil kita lapa n nak pegi cari dinner? :P heeeee, fun, masa2 yg takkan bole ulang lagi sbb thats how its gonna be for us forever.our first lovely date. :)

Happy 4th year anniversary syg.I love u so much2.byk2 sgt2.jom kita jalan2 lagi sampai cranky sbb penat nak kena angkat byk2 brg :P

thanks syg sbb makes me feel so touched with ur gift this year, it's a lovely Esprit watch with diamonds2 yg sgt adowable.and the red red roses with a beautiful roses scents. :) with me giving him a blue tie and a blue Adidas tee. :x

In a drooling-happy mood

i love u syg =) so much-much, love all the topiary in the curve so much, and the cute little lights and the colourful lights bubbles and all the decorated trees. best best.

p.s. my umi finished my Ruffles.grrrrr.

jalan-jalan cari barang

it's 2:28 am.syg dah tido.tapi kasuma punye time tido sekarang dah terbalik..malam bangun, siang tido.pastu kena mara ngan syg sbb tak tido.sbb kasuma bebel syg tak balas msg bile mlm sbb syg penat keje sbb syg tgh tido (durh) mmm..tapi kasuma tak bole tido sbb siang kasuma dah tido sampai syg shy nak tlg kejutkan sbb syg tgh keje kat ofis, takkan nak call kasuma : "syg, bangun, dah pukul 3 dah ni :P" malu je nanti org dgr n being a judgemental as people are normally is as first impression is the key here :P, akan judge yg i pemalas or ape-ape yg tak baik sbb bgn lambat or lepas tengah hari, tapi org tatau i cant sleep at night :P..syg shy nanti org dgr masa die call sbb ofis dier selalu quiet je.takpe kasuma bangun sendiry laaa.thanks syg sbb tlg kejut...heeeee.

just now, we went shopping in k.l.c.c. as everything is on sale right now, tapi i ended up beli stuff yg tak sale, tapi takpela, everyday is a shopping day and holiday for me..syg nak beg lagi..pls..n sipar lagi.i haf this fetish for sipar jepun yg opah ckp ape pakai kasut mcm ni, takde kasut lain ke, despite the fact that it's roxy :P not that murah la for me..tapi comfort yg penting..sipar best sbb kalau design cantik, i love, quality not that bad, tak cabut-cabut, okey.. ;D nanti nak cari kasut yg serious la sikit.

adib selalu ugut me akan buat garage sale utk jual all my shoes sbb too much n i keep em' sbb syg nak pakai sbb cantik n rosak sbb tak pakai bukan sbb pakai, sbb i selalu ugut die nak jual semua komik kesayangan die yg berlambak-lambak n bersepah-sepah tu :P.

okey, esok nak sambung shopping lagi la.hehehe.jom shopping-shoping sume org! =)

p.s. i'm on mythesis..yippeeeee yaiyoo..

Shut Down

I am having a brain freeze, will continue later.

In Progress

I am so stress with my thesis progress right now, tataau nak cakap dengan sape, so tulis kat sini la..now, the progress is "hampir siap" just left a few more to write and analyze before buat conclusion and re-read and tukar ape-ape yang patut, tapi bila nak buat je, rasa macam demotivated sangat-sangat, macam-mane nie =( tapi this is not masalah org lain, my internal problem. Syg selalu gif me advice to finish it as soon as possible so that the "thesis burden" will be off my shoulder, tapi i macam budak kecik yang tatau la, punya la degil, nanak dengar nasihat yg syg bagi. bad me bad me (giggles yang annoying tu).

Syg I'm sorry for being such a stubborn little girlfriend of yours. Tapi takpe, I will try my best to finish it. Promise. Insyaallah. It's for my own good la (& for our own good too, heeeee)! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa geramnye. cepatla siap!

Bites

currently my life is still in the process of unknown journey, like when we are thinking to go for a quick bite we ended up going to the grocery store buying all sort of groceries for a big dinner. my life is so complicated that it needed a quick revamp so that i am aware that i am still alive & living in this world. i just want to savour every bits of life bites and become bitten at the end of the day. what i need is a nice cup of hot coco to go with my anxiety attack that I Am currently In.

Cooking

This conversation takes place during our lazing around on Hari Raya Aidiladha -

adib: syg, adib lapa la..
kasuma: ala, jom keluar makan la, mcD ke..
adib: syg masak la..
kasuma: MALASLA (smiling sheepishly)..
adib: staring deeply into my eyes (thinking) mmmm...betul ke ni..ni ke "bakal my wife" kind of look :P
kasuma: heeeee :* i love u syg.