my opportunity cost.

lets face it,

i am living my life the opposite way as to what most of everyone is having now. i haf so much on my plate and i won't settle for less. too ambitious is best to describe it. sometimes i do feel a bit left behind in terms of love life. and a little bit scared when i think of the numbers of my age. but, i believe everyone's life is unique and definitely not the same. and i am glad somehow syg understand it and always stick by my side supporting me. not to mention, my family. they are the backbone, of course. and economically speaking, i am now incurring an opportunity cost. it's bad.

when everyone is choosing a lovely bridal gowns, i am picking my plain working attire.

when everyone is waiting/receiving a great news of "you are pregnant", i am waiting for my news of "you are accepted", yet, again. {as a student, that is}

when everyone is choosing on which hospital for delivery and welcoming a baby, i am selecting which university to study and receiving my scroll, again. {final level, Insyaallah}

when everyone around me is happily carrying baby's essentials, i am carrying my files of notes.

when everyone is talking about breast pumps, i am thinking of Nose pumps {the shoe brands may vary}

and when some of everyone's kids have grown up and ready to be enrolled into schools, i am enrolling myself into school again, too, heee {well, u know what i mean}

career wise, i am planning to have a balance and comfortable one, before i enter into the life of being together as one. i cannot imagine myself staying at home attending to chores only as i don't enjoy cooking and cleaning as much as i love going out earning and studying. for me, chores is to be done as a part time job, not a full time one. nevertheless, i am not going to melanggar sebarang ketentuan Allah S.W.T. sekiranya yang sebaliknya berlaku. {minta dijauhkan yang buruk}

the problem is time as well as age. but as u already know it by now, i want it all. hmmp.

and in order to get all of it, i am taking things one at a time, step by step, baby steps. as i cant do it all together at once. sbb it requires time as well as focus. it revolves around three main categories :

* Education

* Career

& of course

* Being together as 1 with my him

targets haf been set and need to be achieved, Insyaallah. otherwise, i will feel imperfect. & as of now, baby is definitely my opportunity cost. click here to find out more. hmmp.

p.s. Ya Allah, berikanlah aku petunjuk dalam membuat segala apa jua keputusan dan lancarkanlah perjalananku untuk mencapai semua cita-citaku. Amin.