the little rumbles.

i cooked just now. i cooked to take my mind off everything that has been happening around me which is making me very sick and scared. i had dinner before i cooked and i puke as i was so stressed out wif a slight headache. i can't stand it anymore. i hate my pills. i hate the fact that i'm feeling what i am feeling right now. but at least i'm living my life, not the other way round. if this is how He wants me to live my life, then i accept it wif an open arms. i know that one day, everything will be better.

life's little freedom

watched Ria Sentral and saw abg Yasin wif his new album, new baby girl Malaika and naughty-naughty-naughteeeey Sameer wif a glance of his wife in the picture. dah lama tak jumpa diorg and the only time i always see him is on tv. pathetic how life's little path is drifting us apart. good luck to u wif your life bro.

thinking of the cluster that is piling up in the room is making me feel sick again. i feel so lazy to get it done as it does not bother me in a way that i don't live in the room, i live somewhere else in the house. i'm whining and whining in here wif the tv blazing on and the lights dimmed to perfection wif umi sleeping and dekna is oout and about. i'm not feeling the way that i should be feeling wif this long-long holiday wif the only agenda now is doing nothing. i should be feeling good not this kind of "i hate this feeling" mode. blurgh!

p.s. i'm drooling over chipster and tgif brownies now.