i am malas-ing throughout the day and i wake up too late that sometimes i missed the sunlight because i am a stay at home student, and there's once when there's only a little bit of sunlight left, i decided to go to the park and enjoy the people-watching moments and yummy-dessert relief. but now, i can happily answer to the "tak kerja ke?" question happily, as my answer now would be "going to" :) instead of "belum, study lagi" :)
i am happy but at the same time i am tremendously horrifiedly nervewreckingly scared. i am scared. okeyla, i admit, this is my first serious job. and if it isn't because it is part of the course that i am taking now, i would still not be working yet. i would still go on studying. like adib was saying to me before "sebab tu la ade requirement macam ni, untuk orang-orang macam syg la" {referring to me yang takut untuk kerja and takkan ade experience kerja if requirements untuk bekerja tidak ditetapkan atas student-student}
i takut bukan sbb ape, takut kena marah, takut kena bully, takut macam-macamla {maybe sbb i dah diajar kerja tu scary} and maybe because since i was young my dad tak bagi i kerja, i igt lagi masa habis SPM kan semua orang nak kerja, my dad would be so mad at me if i even go out and find a job. so, i pun ikut la cakap die, chill at home, shopping, tido, teevee, makan, jalan-jalan, enjoy, all the things that normally people do to relax la, and not to forget rebel la as what a stupid teenager would do sbb tak dapat ape die nak, bodoh gile {now, as i grow up, i understand why you did that to me, and i am grateful, thanks abah for letting me live my life, now i miss u so much it hurts badly} :(
owh, siang tadi bangun-bangun pegi gym wif dekna sbb die bole bawa guest. so, i decided to gif it a try and see the environment whether i like it or not and whatever la. now, i'm still indecisive. maybe i nak tgk dulu how my new schedule would be when i start working and after that i will decide. if dah join malas jugak nak pegi, then baru fikir nak replace the broken treadmill pulak. or turun naik tangga je la. exercise jugak kan. let time decide.
pastu pegi dinner wif umi and dekna, makan punya la byk that i think "baik tak payah pegi gym mcm ni" :P susah-susah work out then eat up a feast. the kilos will jump back up again la. alaaaa, leceh la, benci!
p.s. Alhamdulillah. i am grateful wif my life.
i am happy but at the same time i am tremendously horrifiedly nervewreckingly scared. i am scared. okeyla, i admit, this is my first serious job. and if it isn't because it is part of the course that i am taking now, i would still not be working yet. i would still go on studying. like adib was saying to me before "sebab tu la ade requirement macam ni, untuk orang-orang macam syg la" {referring to me yang takut untuk kerja and takkan ade experience kerja if requirements untuk bekerja tidak ditetapkan atas student-student}
i takut bukan sbb ape, takut kena marah, takut kena bully, takut macam-macamla {maybe sbb i dah diajar kerja tu scary} and maybe because since i was young my dad tak bagi i kerja, i igt lagi masa habis SPM kan semua orang nak kerja, my dad would be so mad at me if i even go out and find a job. so, i pun ikut la cakap die, chill at home, shopping, tido, teevee, makan, jalan-jalan, enjoy, all the things that normally people do to relax la, and not to forget rebel la as what a stupid teenager would do sbb tak dapat ape die nak, bodoh gile {now, as i grow up, i understand why you did that to me, and i am grateful, thanks abah for letting me live my life, now i miss u so much it hurts badly} :(
owh, siang tadi bangun-bangun pegi gym wif dekna sbb die bole bawa guest. so, i decided to gif it a try and see the environment whether i like it or not and whatever la. now, i'm still indecisive. maybe i nak tgk dulu how my new schedule would be when i start working and after that i will decide. if dah join malas jugak nak pegi, then baru fikir nak replace the broken treadmill pulak. or turun naik tangga je la. exercise jugak kan. let time decide.
pastu pegi dinner wif umi and dekna, makan punya la byk that i think "baik tak payah pegi gym mcm ni" :P susah-susah work out then eat up a feast. the kilos will jump back up again la. alaaaa, leceh la, benci!
p.s. Alhamdulillah. i am grateful wif my life.
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