can i outshined my expectation?

today, 02 March 2010, marked one year i am being employed {it's actually history in the making, coz i manage to curb myself from quitting}

a year ago, i was this blank, blur, naive little girl who decided that she wanted to work {& tell her mommy, about the decision}, not because it is a must, but it is just a requirement that need to be fulfilled by her which is made by MMU in order for the student to complete the course. i entered wif very little paperlessly knowledge which is experience. {there's once, while i was still studying, i decided to take a part time job & on the first day of going to work, i decided to quit, on the very first day itself, coz it is too much pressure for me to take, hence, i meet the boss & tell her that "i am quitting the job, one month notice"} now, i can think better and little by little i am understanding & studying the meaning of "dah seronok pegang duit sendiri". whenever i feel like giving up or even quit, i will make sure i think deeper than that.

little that i know, after a few months been working in this large empire created by Tan Sri JC, my eyes opened up to a whole new challenges that i can never imagine, which is totally different from the perspectives that i haf been surrounded in before. it teaches me a lot and i haf become a little more aware of the things that happen around the world {okeyla, kalau tak world pun, in life generally} other than just my three favourite combo,

"study + shop + sleep = me"

there is more to life other than those three. and the fact that i can look into a much bigger picture now, does amaze me. i never thought that i could be where i am right now. the fact that i can manage my spending so that it is spent wisely is remarkably great. before, i could lushly said that i can finish up to **,***.00 a month! now, i can happily said, i manage to just spend around *,***.00 a month. itupun, mostly semuanya essentials, not just pure waste. i am glad. i can even save some up! big pat on the shoulder kasuma!

before, it is hard for me to understand the meaning of "i am broke because it is the end of the month" but now, i haf learnt better. i do try to be independent, as much as i can, even though i know, my mom will always support me, but i will try my very best to curb my lifestyle habits, so that i will become an indeed a better person than i am {was} before.

now, i truly understand why my mom and late dad encourage me to study hard, which i am now also forcing my little sister to do so too, despite it being so hard for her. as i am blogging this historical moments in my life, after a whole wonderful & adventurous journey in my career life, i am looking into, a better career advancement opportunity, a more well refined perspectives of life and a higher and indeed increase volume of expectation towards accomplishing my education level.

p.s. i am indeed one very ambitious little girly girlfriend of yours syg. thank you very much for understanding & being there for me throughout the way :)