today is one of those days in which i went to the ladies and cried myself like a little baby, yet, yes, again. people watching is not a contributing factor for me to stop. i keep on crying. and as usual, who do i call to sooth me and share the little mishaps i am having at that moment of time?
u guess who? yes, it's syg.
despite the fact that, we had a little quarrel last weekend, he somehow manage to melt my heart back again {walaupun masa gaduh tu langsung tak igt dunia!} yah, so i called him, to be my little listener + a little motivation whisperer.
some of the words he said, does brings back the smile to my face. and it somehow does lit me up a little.
but, put him aside, back to the little problem, that lead me crying in the ladies, again. appointment was made prior to the proposal presentation, some students called it Viva? if im not mistaken, and i came in just in time to present it to him. we were discussing and he listens. after that he argues followed with an explanation on how i can improve my proposal. in short, the conversation goes a little like this:
"read, read, read"
"what's new?"
"pdf"
"scholarly"
"must fill in the gap"
"must be new"
i was close to tears and he noticed {because as some of you might have known, i really want this, and i mean it, but it's too hard!} and he quickly make it short with a friendly little conclusion which goes something like this "& yes, you can come and disturb me anytime". i did not cry in front of him though, and manage to keep my tears until i reached the ladies.
come to think of it, even though i am quite unlucky for the past few attempts, but now, there's a little light, and i consider myself a little lucky this time, considering that he cares and want to help me out for this next proposal. btw, it's gonna be my fifth one. hmmp.
p.s. Insyaallah, i takkan putus asa. Insyaallah.
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