sorrow.

so this feeling i am having is definitely cannot be fully described by words. i am numb. so numb i don't know what am i feeling anymore. i feel disguise. i feel like crying but, i keep it in. i feel so chocked up, u can't imagine how. i am all negative now. it's because of this : meeting at 8.00 pm and must standby at around 7.++ pm on a puasa day/month.

but,

i am portraying and carrying a positive attitude as best as i can. i am indeed literally rewarding myself a trophy for best positive actress of the day.

i even sms syg not to call me as i don haf any mood or urge to speak to anyone. luckily he is understanding and never complaint.

i am definitely hoping that there's a silver lining behind all this.

well, as of now, lets just hope for the best for tonight's meeting. no hiccups whatsoever. please run on smoothly. and please keep your smiley face till it's over and done with, kasuma.

p.s. I'll be having mineral water and Nips for buka puasa {looking on the bright side, bole diet sikit ey?} well, even when i was a student it was better. so, yeah, no mood. off.