when i was a kid in school, i haf a few of ambition that i want to try to pursuit. i might not know what it means that time, but somehow the button just fits.
igt tak masa kecik-kecik kita kena isi borang or something yang kena tulis cita-cita tu?
or
cikgu akan tanya apa cita-cita kita bila kita dah besar tu?
as for me, i haf a few.
One - i want to be a teacher/cikgu. i really want to become a teacher because i view them as being pretty with brain. they can teach and disseminate knowledge easily. they are smart and kids are "scared" of them but at the same time, they can also be the listener, and perhaps the one to guide and advice. well, they look pretty good doing what they do~ *tapi budak-budak tgk i, diorg anggap mcm teman sepermainan jeeee~
Two - i want to be a model/peragawati. as u know, being a model means being pretty. and looking beautiful is what they do best. i guess this ambition signify myself being beautify by professionals, pampered by designers, and dolled-up by artist. heeee. but when i was growing up, i had a tough time arguing with my parents as they don't allow me to become one. few opportunities were left astray and time past. i decided to listen to them. and now that i am older and a little wiser, i get what they mean and understand why they hinder me from becoming one. *syg pun tak berapa suke, so, lupakan sajala.
Three - i want to be a stewardess/flight attendance/peramugari. ini pun sama, saya nak jadi sbb saya tgk diorg cantik je serving the drinks and cute little nibbles on the plane. dah la dapat fly to everywhere. literally, i want to fly too, therefore by becoming one, i can fly all i want and everywhere i wish for and also doing it in style ;) *tapi kena tinggalkan family pulak, tak best, tak best.
tapi di atas ini semuanya, hanyalah khayalan kanak-kanak yang hanya melihat semuanya sebagai indah-indah sahaja. and now that i haf reached the age of understanding what life is all about and that there's no such thing as a clear water, i am definitely awake. awake by the truth of what life brings. i am slowly learning and adapting to it day by day.
back to cita-cita saya, now i am facing a cross roads of reaching for the ambition and becoming the closest thing i can become based on what my ambition was when i was a kid or just being comfortable with what i am now, a little bit more. *if u know me well, i'm sure u can guess what's the closest thing i am thinking to be, right? heeeee :) it's just that, i need some advice and a little consultation with the one who already had become one. i hope they can gif me some wise advice and shine a little light for me to make my decision.
hopefully, i will come to a good conclusion and by that i mean, i will finally be satisfy with the path that i am about to choose next. only time will tell. Insyaallah.
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