litle by little, i am learning.

dad, do u know that i have come to the age of realizing and understanding the meaning of life? well, little by little, i am learning, still & always. {but, you should be proud of me dad, & i am sorry for always merajuk-ing everytime you forbid me from doing something}

like for example these :

1) for not letting me work in a McD or anywhere while i was waiting for my SPM result {all you do is tell me to study hard and i was so lazy!}

&

2) for not letting me drive. and bila abah takde umi told us {me & little sis} that you love us so much & you were so scared of losing us, if anything bad were to happen if we drive ourself everywhere {darah muda, temper, nak drive laju-laju je, so die takutla}

back then, all i do is rebel and merajuk and marah you je sbb tak bagi i kerja & drive. i am so sorry.

now that i am already working i understand why you forbid me from working in my young age and told me to wait for the right time & why you don't let me drive when i was a teenager and you drive me wherever i wanted to go. i truly do.

apparently it's too late to let you know how i feel *tears :'(

p.s. little birds please do let him know. thanks.