she chocked,she laughs,she whines.

well at least that was what happened when i told them the news :)

umi was like all chocked up, not even a single word comes out of her mouth, i was giggling and laughing, and opah whines like a lottt ;p {the most important thing is, they are happy}

it was simple, my statement was just this "umi, adib ajak tunang, macam mane?" heeee. and i continue eating. it was during buka puasa, and umi wants My Ribena, so i don't haf any more reason to chocked up my words like the day before :)

it was indeed one of the lovely moment in my life. 25.8.10 7.30pm-8.00pm. i finally blurt it out to umi & opah. hope arwah abah is listening too. i wonder what dekna's reaction would be like when i tell her? ;p

anyway, i hope everything will be okey and nice like the way i dream it to be. Insyaallah.

p.s. saw this somewhere while i was shopping for my baju raya, i think i want the detail on my baju pertunangan to look a little bit like this, bole? hehe. tarikhnya? will share when the time comes :)

My Ribena

i chocked and drank my ribena when i was about to blurt it out. prepared my lines and was sheepishly smiling. but there. i couldn't do it. i think i need some kind of a moderator or some sorts. well, at least, that was what happened yesterday when i wanted to break the news to umi and opah. & i definitely couldn't do it, yet.

will try again today. and again and again until i succeeded. hee.

p.s. don't worry, it's a good news :)

Oven & Fridge Story

yesterday while browsing through some blogs and fbee's friend's updates, i've stumble upon few people who has started oven-ize and even started selling some freshly homemade bake cookies.

and with that, i felt like using the oven too and start experimenting a few cookie recipe, myself. and i share the news with syg after dengan semangatnya googled for some simple & easy cookie recipes.

here goes our little conversation over the phone during lunch break.

her : syg, i feel like making some cookies laaaaaaa.

him : no response.

her : syg?

him : syg buat k?

her : i know ur smiling kan? i know u know i can't do it kan? ;p

him : mana ade, syg buat k?

her : okey.

pause..

her : i feel like making ..................

him : owh, yang tu syg letak dalam fridge pun bole jadi.

her : tapi dalam recipe ni suruh bake dalam oven.

him : bole syg.....mak pernah buat macam tu.

her : .............

him : bole syg.....syg cuba buat without oven dulu k?

her : longggg pause

him : ...................... {ops, saya salah cakap ke?}

her : okeyla, i'll try and bake with the FRIDGE first.

him : okey.

him & her : okeyla, bye. love u~

there goes, my boyfriend's view on his girlfriend's wish to bake some cookies with the OVEN ;p

p.s. saya tak terasa pun. saya tengah senyum sambil tulis nie. huh. takpe syg, nanti saya belajar, saya pandai, saya buat banyak-banyak baru tahu~ love yuuh! ;p

Ramadhan Treats :)

ops. i've been idle. somehow, i haf a lot of little-little story to share in here but the time always fails to stick by myside.

currently life is stagnant with the normality's and the routines, luckily some small little-little pops of ad hoc-ness brings a little light of refreshments to our life. if not, i might as well transform and becomes a robot.

well, it's the 14th day of puasa dy.

this Ramadhan, adib & i decided to try as many bazaar as possible and not just stick to the same bazaar everytime we wanted to go to one. in fact, we only can go during the weekends, so might as well make full use of it, kan? as of now we haf gone to only :

14 Aug - Taman Tun Bazaar - all i wanted from here is the Ayam Bakar Percik. nyum. i ate it almost every year, literally, everytime we haf the chance to go to the bazaar i'll get it. but for this year it's gonna be only once :( takpe, nanti i pujuk syg, pegi bazaar Taman Tun lagi :P

15 Aug - Kota Damansara Bazaar - new, and we only bought few things like curry puff, and murtabak.

21 Aug - another Kota Damansara Bazaar but this one is near to the highway leading to Ipoh & KL - this is syg's choice when he was working in AIROD. so, he somehow is quite familiar with this one and we bought Ikan Pari Panggang & lots of kuih-muih :)

hmmp, so, where to next? i wonder.

and owh,

one more thing, this Ramadhan opah is here. so, we've been having this array of assortments of kampung-style dishes. so nyum and i think, i've gained a little? :P tambah pulak, opah buat dessert almost every day. berselera dan bergemuk la saya. ape-ape pun Alhamdulillah ada makanan on the table :) jadi saya akan berhenti complaint ;p

so far, this Ramadhan is a blessing, and hopefully it will always be. Insyaallah.

p.s. ops, my promise to syg is also still in idle. ops. ops. ops. will hopefully get it done before Ramadhan ends. Insyaallah.

sorrow.

so this feeling i am having is definitely cannot be fully described by words. i am numb. so numb i don't know what am i feeling anymore. i feel disguise. i feel like crying but, i keep it in. i feel so chocked up, u can't imagine how. i am all negative now. it's because of this : meeting at 8.00 pm and must standby at around 7.++ pm on a puasa day/month.

but,

i am portraying and carrying a positive attitude as best as i can. i am indeed literally rewarding myself a trophy for best positive actress of the day.

i even sms syg not to call me as i don haf any mood or urge to speak to anyone. luckily he is understanding and never complaint.

i am definitely hoping that there's a silver lining behind all this.

well, as of now, lets just hope for the best for tonight's meeting. no hiccups whatsoever. please run on smoothly. and please keep your smiley face till it's over and done with, kasuma.

p.s. I'll be having mineral water and Nips for buka puasa {looking on the bright side, bole diet sikit ey?} well, even when i was a student it was better. so, yeah, no mood. off.

Fish Story

so, yesterday night my grandma and my mom cooked this dinner yang i rasa odd tapi sedappppp sgt. terasa kekampungan feel tu, nyum!~

it's a fish dish. die macam piranha sikit rupa ikan die. opah and umi only tell me it's ikan sungai. they don't bother to tell me the name sbb they know i am not good in fish story. whenever they cooked fish they only tell me, jaga tulang, baik - baik tulang die, etc. and i only would ask, banyak tulang tak?. i tak kisah ikan tu dari laut ke, sungai ke, darat ke? :P

& yesterday i reached home at about 9.00 pm and was so famished and cranky. dahla tension dgn meeting yang di-overtime kan. so when i smell the lauk, i terus jadi tak sabar-sabar nak makan, lapar + tension combo.

while scorching the lauk in the periuk, my grandma was praying in the room and my mom was resting on her bed {tidur - tidur ayam la}

i asked from the kitchen :

me : opah, ni ikan ape ni?

opah : ikan sungai laaa.

me : ikan ape?

opah : ikan sungai.

me : ikan ni mcm same je yang mcm pagi tadi makan tu, tapi yang pagi tadi tu kecik kan? {breakfast pun dah makan}

opah : yee {annoyed}, jaga tulang.

me : owh {bukan faham pun beza die, for me ikan is fish and fish is ikan}

opah : makanla, jaga tulang.

umi menyampuk : jaga tulang.

me : owh, so ni ikan mak. yang pagi tadi ikan anak la?

opah & umi : burst out laughing.

me : ape? dah yg gulai ni besar yang goreng tu kecik. so ikan mak dgn ikan anak la. heee.

opah & umi : yaaa. i told adib and he said opah & umi layankan ajeee~ :P

during sahur, same fish dish :

opah : ha, ni adik ikan {paling kecik}, kakak ikan {sederhana kecik}, tu, mak ikan {sederhana besar}.

me & umi : smile and makan :P

Weezer - Butterfly

A friend of mine posted a fraction of this lyrics on my fb wall. she said the song reminded her of me. somehow it touches my heart and i am indeed in awwww when i read it. how a simple gestures and a little thought could bring a significant amount of difference to my Friday morning, therefore, i guess, this applies to everyone who haf friends, they may not be with u all the time, but they indeed could also be thinking of u, when u did think of them, and a simple little call, wall or sms, could really make a huge difference :) well, at least, it did for me. thanks dear.

Yesterday I went outside

With my mama's mason jar

Caught a lovely butterfly

When I woke up today

Looked in on my fairy pet

She had withered all away

No more sighing in the breast

I'm sorry for what I did

I did what my body told me to

I didn't mean to do you harm

Everytime I pin down what I think I want it slips away

The goal slips away

Smell you on my hands for days

I can't wash away your scent

If I'm a dog then you're a bitch [pause]

I guess you're as real as me

Maybe I can live with that

Maybe I need fantasy

Life of chasing butterfly

I'm sorry for what I did

I did what my body told me to

I didn't mean to do you harm

Everytime I pin down what I think I want it slips away

The goal slips away

I told you I would return

When the robin makes his nest

But I ain't never coming back

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

is he?

browsing through facebook's list of friends, everyone is putting their baby as their profile pictures. i am all teary. of pure joy of course. and since yesterday, of which i found out that my long lost friend since kindergarten whom i found on the Internet, shared her lovely news that she's now a positive, my heart beats faster of happiness :) & not to mention newborns, crawling, walking, i mean all that baby story. how life revolves. it never failed to daze me.

+ looking at everyone's new album of their newborn is just amazing. i couldn't describe it more with words. I'm chocked.

just last night, he rekindled our relationship length and we were all laughing out loud remembering all those sweet moments that we had together + gaduh-gaduh lagi, hehe. good habits, bad habits, well i put it as one of our life little learning process. tapi yang paling ketara ialah, our cloths. our size, we seems to be in denial and put it as baju tu dah shrink, not kita dah membesar :) well.

and just this morning, we had a crazy sms's frenzy which depicts how long and how well verse of each other's behaviour to one another, we are.

him : Gud morning syg..esok dpt bebel ngn syg..i love u so much2 syg :*

her : I love u syg, kenapa i nak bebel pulak, ...................... {& the sms continue with a bebel}

him : Terus reply tanpa membaca smpai ke bawah. hahahahah

her : :P benci!

and looking back from the day we happen to get squashed up and coincidentally meet each other, i hope he is truly the one. Insyaallah.

huu~

he said this is the last chance and I've been having nightmares since then. i guess, he's just being normal and i am the one who's obviously an alien :( only time will tell.