work and things!

work. dnd.it's really hard to achieve this.
but very often we agree to this.
but, it's not that we are doing this kind of job to hate it so much. we need to be grateful too.

often, men'll be so hardworking, we girls think that they somehow abandon us. huh.

but, we, of course, no matter what, haf to accept it as it pays. it pays for things.

& whatever happens & however twisted it can go, we got to find the way to get the balance between things so that at the end of the day, we won't lose a thing!

p.s. googled pics.

Facebook

so, the rave about Facebook will be "shut down" soon is no more a surprise. betul ke tak betul ke, i don't know. but from the economically perspectives, it's a very good strategy indeed.

ape-ape pun, biar jela diorg decide. what i want to share in here is far from what the approach that they are taking. it's about us. Facebook & us. not me & adib but me and my family and some friends.

the thing about Facebook that makes me keep on logging in is that, it somehow, binds our family and some of my friends back together. and the fact that it is where most of us are {i mean, who doesn't haf FB right?}, we somehow connects to each other, online. {sbb, if nak jumpa everyday, macam tak logik kan, due to the busy-ness issue? hmmp.} and yes, everyone is also tied up wif shits and stuff and things of life..... but..... somehow everyone can seem to find the time to log in to the Facebook, kan? to connect to each other, to talk to someone, to know stuff about other people, besides busy-body-ing on what other people are doing by their status updation ;p kan.

& by replying and commenting and like-ing a statement, a photo, or even a link, everyone seems to be connecting back to each other, indirectly, though in real life we aren’t really talking to each other. that’s kinda like a miracle to me. because it is a proof fact that Facebook somehow makes us "talk" to each other back without us even realizing it.

hmmp, i don't know about the status now, but well, let's just hope that the "shut-ting down" is just some mere economically incline drama, not a real thing. that's just my two cents though, my perspectives, i don't know about yours, really.

eeekkk~

i am so used to the norm i somewhat feel silly {talking about silly, remember this post?} when it is not the norm. so the other day we were so busy {overrated terms we all use! right?}, i ran out of Touch & Go credits and had to use the cash for payments, and this is what happened as i reached the LDP toll :

Me : hmmppppp, {long pauseeee} berapa? {berapa?, omg, i had to. i don't know how much!}

The Lady : looking at me in awe.

Me : smiles sheepishly.

The Lady : RM 1.60

Me : owh.

The Lady : still in awe!

;p

now, that's what happen when all i do is swipe the card without even looking at the amount deducted. and all the drama about, toll fees dah naik, never landed on my thoughts as important. haish. must be more alert next time. ignorance is not always a blissful idea. eekk!

the happy letter.

of late, i have been so busy my face feels itchy. it shows when one of my colleague notice the dry and unpolished skin of mine. i really need to find time to do some quick facial fix and get some natural glow back to my skin. my hair needs some untangling treats too.

okay la, on a little serious note, few days ago, I received yet another happy letter. it was indeed seriously a happy letter! I smiled all the way. in fact i was so happy I feel like fainting reading it. I read it so many times coz it feels untrue.

Alhamdulillah, it is true. all I wanted to do is get myself a Gucci + LV + a Trip, all in one go asap! but, knowing me knowing my little self inside me, though I can afford to, even without this happy letter, I won’t.

pleasing and spreading it around is more like what I’d do, and I’ll definitely have most of it un-liquid, stagnant and grows little by little. Insyaallah.

apart from that owh so happy news i'm getting, umi’s being warded again and just discharged last night.

so again, how am I suppose to spread this little happy news of mine when all I am surrounded by is misery? some God’s plan all of us haf to adhere. hmmp.

let me share a story . . . .

a story that makes me stay away from my Apple and make me curb myself from writing a story in here. coz i am afraid all you'd hear is the story of melancholicity. we're having a little hiccups in our life that sometimes I think it won’t stop with just plain water. It needs more than a boost of liquid to heal.

and in fact I still feel I am in 2010 despite having a lot of things happening in between, for one, I don’t even haf a 2011 diary to kick the year off. Thinking and writing 2011’s resolutions is also out of sight, but, this one, I’ll know it is slowly coming in good. Alhamdulillah.

Cumanya, Allah S.W.T haf His Own plan for me. he twist it a little by giving me so much of an obstacle I feel like breaking down, but I can’t. I can’t afford to break down. I am taking this test of Yours patiently, Insyaallah, and my tears, it runs so much, I build an imaginary pool out of it.

He tested me so hard. so hard it involves my mom’s health condition; after which I am only eighty percent healed from my dad’s absent. it's not cool :( i can't bear to handle all this. it's so heartbreakingly sad, But at the same time He is giving me the good news I’ve been longing. So how am I supposed to react and feel? so twisted. I feel so in between.

a little pat on the shoulder. . .

when running is the best mode of walking, when a meal concludes the whole three major meals, when multitasking is the only way to settle things and when me time is strip away slowly. this is when my life haf come to a point of no turning back and thus looking forward is the only best solution i could ever be satisfied with.

& starting from February onwards i'll be adding up the cramp life drama and sign up on a new commitment. and you’ll definitely be reading my whines, my stories of burning the midnight oils, my twisting brain drain, my sore eyes due to reading thousands of words and etc etc. { i'm sure you can guess what already right? :) } am i happy? i am over the moon, you haf no idea. but can i really cope with it? i am not really sure yet, well, hopefully i can.

i can’t wait for it to start and finish though, but, of course, at the same time, I am so scared! It’s like I am nearing the finishing line but, to get to the finish line is not as easy as it may seem. though, I somehow can say I haf all the motivations and supports needed but deep down inside of me, i am so nervous, i wish i am transparent so that everyone can really see it.

well, hopefully i can really do it, as i've been waiting for ages just to get my proposal done & approved and being told “your offer letter is ready!”. giving up nor quitting now is definitely not a good move.

the telepathy in us . . .

telepathy, wujud ke?

telepathy, instinct, or is it just a mere coincident? Or is it love? ;p

I am not really sure. But one thing for sure, it did happened.

Btw, I am talking about us, being picking out the same hue color of cloth, thinking of the same thing at the same time, calling each other at the same time, and sometimes he already know what I want to eat haha {tapi ni, sbb I ni picky eater, so I tend to eat the same thing only!}

I mean, for cloth, I am not there with him at his house to be picking out cloth for him and me to wear, nor we haf set a time for us to be talking on the phone! But how does it coincidently happen?

People always says, same mind think alike, but, we are not the same, nor identical, we’re just some mere lovebirds who happens to love each other dearly and sometimes I think we manage to think alike. It’s weird, I pun rasa macam tu.

Tapi, if we gaduh, jangan harap nak pakai baju color same, or come to a same conclusion or opinion, tengok muka pun tanak!

And after 7 years of knowing each other, and on the last 6th Anniversary being a boyfriend and a girlfriend before now officially become Engaged, guess what we bought each other as an Anniversary gift? It’s really a SURPRISE, I tell you. Tak percaya langsung!~

Okeyla, I’ll continue in the next post, sekarang sambung kerja dulu.

a bloody affair.

I am close to crying each time I send her in. It’s not that I am a cry baby or what, but simply because I am overwhelmed, so overwhelmed by the situation and place that I sometimes can’t really hold back the tears.

I do wonder, why do all these happen to me, to my family? But being a human being, we can never answer a life question. It’s in the hands of God.

Most of the time, I’d pinch myself or chocked my breath just so the tears won’t spill. I succeeded few times, tapi selalunya I fail. But of course, if it did happen, it is not seen by her {i'll try my very best not to let her see it} & sometimes, i just let it happen in my heart and all everyone else can see is my smile. Is it a fake smile? No, but, it is definitely just a smile. I don’t know how I did that.

i guess, apart from tears God gave us smiles, and I think I should just go through it, strongly, no matter what. I can never let myself crumble, or else, it’d be worse.

it’s really hard to express it in simple basic words though, but all I can say is, I am darn sad.

Pumpkin.

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Why am I writing about pumpkin, u asks?

Hmmp. I love pumpkin, I mean, who doesn’t right? It’s sweet, soft and melt in your mouth taste makes you ask for more!

I always requested umi to make me pumpkin dish. Thinking that it is simple and easy to make. After all, it’s just pumpkin.

Besides being a hearty meal, people always use pumpkin to describe sweetness. For example, my pumpkin pie, pumpkin patch, my pumpkins!, owh my little pumpkin, and all things pumpkin la.

In Malay, pumpkin can also be a teaser, like, iyelah labuuuuuu.

So, the other day, we wanted to serve pumpkin dish, for our guest, it was my idea of course, cause I thought, it’s sweet, nice and nyummy & suppose to be simple and easy!

My task was to peel the pumpkin. I said to myself, senang je, nantila peel. After I am done with peeling shrimps, potong bawang, slicing the meat, blending the chili, and etc. etc. {dalam hati I, peel pumpkin macam peel potato je kot}

So, by the time I am ready with the other task in hand, it’s time for me to peel the star of the day, the Pumpkin. took a knife, sat on the chair at the table, with a round riped orangey coloured pumpkin, I’m all ready and set. Once the knife reached the pumpkin skin, my heart SANK literally. It is so DAMN FREAKIN’ HARD TO PEEL A PUMPKIN, I tell you! Cuba you pergi cari pumpkin and pergi cuba peel it, SUMPAH SUSAH!

It’s far from like peeling a potato. a potato is so easy to peel, siap ade the potato peeler lagi. I haven’t found any pumpkin peeler anywhere, wujud ke ha? Ntahlaaa.

After the first three peels, I was already complaining hard, and opah had to do something about it, coz I guess she knows that my mouth won’t shut until she do something to the pumpkin. So, she cut it into three piece, and told me to only do two of it. *siap bagi motivation* ;p Barula I rasa semangat, tak payah habiskan satu labu haha.

While peeling, my nails almost break and my fingers jadi so rough and muddy. Urgh. I took almost an hour just to peel the 2 per three pumpkin. Haih, memalukan okey! Lepas habis, I ask opah to cut it into pieces, I don’t want to handle it anymore~

Now that I know how hard it is to make a pumpkin dish, I will value it more later. And if I ever stumble upon any pumpkin dish at someone’s house, I’ll ask who peel the pumpkin? cause she surely deserve a pat on the shoulder! ;p

p.s. no wonder pumpkin is so yummy. sbb susah sgt nak dapatkan isi dia. hehe.

it's all about the Ring!

11.1.11

It’s been 10 days.

Do I feel different? Yes, a bit. But not that much. It’s just that now I’ve got two rings from him and I am now officially half single. Hik hik.

And I am so loving my two rings! Like so much. The Merisik Ring is a Gold "Belah Rotan" Ring which is very classic looking of which I kinda like loving it so very much. Timeless is more likely the best way to describe it.

And the Engagement Ring. It’s a 0.*2 Carat Diamond hugged by a six claws ring which binds it flawlessly into a very elegant and simple looking ring! Perfect from my eyes, that is. And definitely fits me. I am a girl who always wanted a Diamond Ring. But buying it myself would not be special until I got someone special buying it for me first. That’s like the hidden reason why I haven’t been buying myself one. Besides, diamond is best received as a gift than buying one ourself! haha. And now that I’ve got it. I’m loving it so much you have no idea how much is that much.

While we were ring-hunting, of course I got carried away with many different patterns and styles and shapes that are available in the market. But, him knowing me toooo well, always pulls me back into the basics and makes me stick to my mind and remind me that we wanted a simple and classic timeless piece, the Solitaire Type. Scorching for a solitaire, we wanted something perfect for he’s own budget {though, it somehow ter-over from what he budgeted, heee} and of course it must be one of a kind. So, we decided to custom made the design based on our preferences. We choose a Round Brilliant Cut Diamond and pick an Evergreen Claw. And it comes with a Certificate and Code to verify that it is one of a kind & genuine :) how awesome!

My smiles widen. He was the one who insisted on buying that, because he knows how fussy I am! And now, I can’t take my eyes off of it. Geez, thanks syg. Syukur, Alhamdulillah.

sneaky..

well, i am itching to write a longgg entry for our engagement day, but the time runs so fast i couldn't catch up!~ will do, soonnn :)

1.1.11 - My Engagement Day :)