currently my mind is bogged down by an issue so deep i couldn't make up my mind in just a split second. even walking, eating and shopping around klcc with the two kids, little sister and nephew does not take my mind away from the big issue.
it surely involves a big stretch of how my future and my present would be. it's big enough, that my mind zooms through on what will happen by the time my age turns it's front number double than now.
it's a coincidence itself when they started the program just months before i started and would end by the year i am expected to finish. i really do believe that's one of God's plan for me. so should i take it? i don't know.
and not to mention the sweet little burden i am on now. it's definitely bittersweet, that i feel like running away far enough for me to hid from it all. but of course, it wouldn't settle the issue. so why run? better don't.
it's full of positive outcomes, but the negativity lingering around it can't seem to just fades away without my eyes twitching to it.
but just by mindmapping it out, i see it planned well enough. and i am happy. but i am scared at the same time. so how now? what to do?
will do more thinking and lucky enough, it is open all year. Ya Allah help me make the decision ya?
it surely involves a big stretch of how my future and my present would be. it's big enough, that my mind zooms through on what will happen by the time my age turns it's front number double than now.
it's a coincidence itself when they started the program just months before i started and would end by the year i am expected to finish. i really do believe that's one of God's plan for me. so should i take it? i don't know.
and not to mention the sweet little burden i am on now. it's definitely bittersweet, that i feel like running away far enough for me to hid from it all. but of course, it wouldn't settle the issue. so why run? better don't.
it's full of positive outcomes, but the negativity lingering around it can't seem to just fades away without my eyes twitching to it.
but just by mindmapping it out, i see it planned well enough. and i am happy. but i am scared at the same time. so how now? what to do?
will do more thinking and lucky enough, it is open all year. Ya Allah help me make the decision ya?
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