thinkerbell?

meeting meeting meeting

decision decision decision

problem problem problem

solution solution solution

think think think

best ke kerja office?

i donno bout u, but i think its somehow cool with a twist of suckiness.

k nak balik, tido. bye!

grappel.

im slacking in my work. it sucks. i know.

quick one!

last weekend is one of those weird, eh bukan weird la, mmm "normal" weekend, where I did not experience any mood-swings blowing up, or even a simple silly tantrum. we had a great weekend and manage to settle most of the to-do-list, happily!.

okeyla from now on, I'll put some of his deeds into writing as & when it happens so that i won't forget it when I'm having my pms and decided to quarrel with him {every single month} :P

* he went and service my car complete with some minor changes {he did this almost every time}

* he helped out in some of the chores at home, without being asked to.

* i hate pumping in the petrol, therefore, everyweek, he would make sure that the tank is full for his gf sorang ni! teehee, happiness! {i hate it so much, i would literally hire a petrol pumper!}

okeyla, nak kerja jap.

p.s. on another note, the Diamond i told you about on the previous post, salah! it's for my Guess clutch! :P shit. habis la kena bebel. syg. salah k. tu bukan untuk jam. tapi tu beg punye. {confession / blog & talk} {p.s.s. valid reason for a new wrist watch? definitely. teehee}

officially another mode of communication..

my blog has officially become one of our communication tool at the office {+ one way of telling something tanpa kena mara terus depan muka} haha {& to avoid kena mara dgn boss sbb asyik main hp, so blog & talk} heee.

9.29 a.m. - first post for today

10.18 a.m. - Adib: Syg nk bg tau ape? {sms}

12.03 p.m. - second post for today

3.17 p.m. - Adib: Syggggggggg..hey bdk kecik ni.ckp adib pakai ganas.. {sms}

hehe, i didn't reply yet, we're meeting up later for our little weekly date. oppss mesti kena bebel. teehee.

haf a great weekend all of u, love!

here goes...

heee,

syg,

igt tak jam Kasuma yang Esprit tu yang syg bagi tu yang untuk birthday tu,

yang ni laaaaaaaaaaaa

blur picture? ade reason, heek!

kan syg ade tanya haritu kenapa Kasuma tak pakai dah?

sebabnyaaaaaa

jeng jeng jeng

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takutnyaaa

sebab die

one of the diamond hilang! i tatau macam mane bole hilang. tapi bile nak pakai tgk die dah takde. sbb tu la i tak pakai {u know how i hate barang yang dah kurang perfect kan?} ha cuba syg tgk.

nanti i cari kotak dia, i think i ade perasan they give extra diamond tu {if im not mistaken la}, in case if something like this happen? nanti i cari k syg, then we go send it to Esprit to fix it k? teehee {mana la nak selongkar kotak tu, please laaaa jumpa, nanti syg mara, aaaaa}

itu sahaja. okey, back to work. love you! kiss and hugsssss hugssssssssss. c u this evening!

p.s. syg nak jam baru! hehehe.

syg...

syg,

i haf something to tell you, tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii kan........

:P nantila.

heek!

what's on my mind right now...

* Saloon & hair treatment

* Alteration

* Massage

* Proposal {i think from now on, u can view it at few different angles, teehee}

* Resume

* SMC Logo Contest

* Sandy beach

* Swimming pool

* Gym

* Seafood

* Meatballs

* Handbag?

* SW

gloomy foamy day

this post is dedicated to my emo mood which i am experiencing today, yes, yet another. I've been emo since like yesterday & it is definitely killing me inside out. the fact that i hate being emo and bringing negativity vibes around, is so sucky cos my face tends to show it very well and is almost impossible to hide {normally, I'll smile a lot and when my emo strikes up, i tend to snob & it shows very well}

besides that, i also had a little fight wif my mom {it's darn normal and I'm damn bored wif it already} and it definitely worsen the situation.

& these happy news i am receiving and getting now is not doing any help too {i guess, it is also one of the contributing factor to my emo state of mood}

i guess, I'm always too focused on the future and i tend to misplace my pink baggage of happiness for the present. i haf to change but, i feel like i even haf forgotten myself. i fast forward my little life too fast and now i am paying for the little toll fees. darn.

i will always love.....

teevee, choc chip cookies, flowers, photo booth on MacBook on a lazy Sunday afternoon after a long sleep. teehee, happiness :)

musical love notes

i always wanted to learn the piano. always. but i haven't got the chance & time yet. maybe one day, when i am done wif books, then only will i chase this little dream of mine. in the mean time, I'll keep this little note in my dream diary. dreams. one precious little word i hold on to. always.

curi masa.

today is one of those days in which i need to multitask a lot.

meeting, meeting, meeting.

assignments, assignments, assignments.

it's hectic, but blogging is definitely one of em'! :P

Morse Code

I learned something new, yesterday, from The Amazing Race + Google. i guess learning is a lifelong process, ain't it?

So, this is for you {who's reading this} & {especially} syg to figure out. hee.

...-.----./-..--.-/-.-.-.....--/-....-.-...-/..--..

---..---..

-.-.-.....---.-

do visit Morse Code to get the dots and dashes codes, teehee. good luck & enjoy! :)

shopaholic rage.

these few weeks back, my itinerary for the weekends was always fully filled with family activities or friends gatherings.

thus, i am slacking in my retail therapy and i guess it does bothers me a bit. i mean seriously. i am in desperate need of getting my hands on a new pair of shoes {not that all my shoes are all worn out} but, i just want to grab a new pair of shoes. pronto. itu sahaja.

bad day.

i am having a very bad day today, i mean it started out bad. and i feel like it's going to be worst next {ni baru pagi je, aduh}. it's like i can forecast the next bad thing that's going to happen, which is kinda sucky. bad bad.

i donno. let's just see.

when work takes the centre stage.

yesterday, we fight over something so small yet big. going through rows & rows of cars and piles & piles of workload to attend to, I was kinda having a stress attack more than the usuals. i know he haf his own kind of stress too. but.....

so, the problem/issues arises when, i try to seek an extra attention from him more than the usuals, yesterday. sbb i was stuck in a traffic jam and i stress sbb banyak kerja and i tension and i geram and ditambah pula dgn my mom and lil sis yang manja-manja tak kena tempat dan decided to ask me to get dinner for them dari tempat yang jam pulak tu, which piles & piles up to my stress and boils inside to a volcanic state of momentum.

there,

i need to talk to someone right? and who else do i contact to sooth me down other than him?

boy, was i wrongg. i recite him the situation a bit here and there & he was in the middle of something when he picks up my call and he decides to yell at me just so that i cut off the line sbb die sibuk tgh buat something tu at home. rasa dekat hati sgt. i was in distress, very deep one pulak tu. and he yelled!

he call many times after that and i decided to just ignore it. i stared at the caller id and see it disappearing just like that. few times. huh. concerned, he sms. i ignored. and bla bla. & the drama continues.

morale of the story : this is what happens to a relationship when work takes the centre stage. how to curb ourself from fighting over this little-little silly things when we are damn tired after a whole hard & tiresome day multitasking at work?

a little peek into his sms this morning.

" Adib : Gud morning bdk kecik yg merajuk smlm :-* syg dah confirmkan ngn zakuan? I love u so much2 syg :-*

Kasuma : Opsssss lupaaa..ah..sambung merajuk.

Kasuma : Igt I SAMBUNG MERAJUK. Love u. Bye.

he reminds me to settlekan something dalam gaduh-gaduh kecik tu pun :P syg, syg.. "

kita tunggu lagi macam mane die nak pujuk hari ni ye. huh.

p.s. i think WE need to refurbish our little rule , tambah pasal work/career & love. hmmm.

new "posting", maybe?

i just got out of the Meeting Room. just had a discussion with the Director and also the Manager. in an open discussion, they seems to positively reviewed me and i am of course indeed more than happy to be receiving such a nice recommendation + comment. but, on the other hand, i still feel quite a little self doubt and somehow insecure?

i donno. i guess, my little life + career life is mixing colourfully well, imagine "a colourful rainbow little patchworks"? in the making or maybe mixing in darkfully blackish colour, imagine "dark black oil for the engine"? :) ntahlah labu, ikut je la dulu, mana-mana pun*

now, i am only waiting & relying on the decision makers to make the decision & come out wif a conclusion, and hopefully all {i mean, ALL!} these little-little-supposedly-to-make-me-happy-great-news will finally reached it's climax, maybe next month or so? please. my life is pro-shorted on waiting only. please gif me some space + air to breath. and please pro-longed my life on happy news. dear God. please. Amin.

on being a Duta? teehee.

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"Duta The Curve"

so here are some of the points to ponder upon, the reason in short on why we love to "be seen" there, A LOT hee.

The Curve house most of our favourite outlets :)

my always-cravings-for-meatballs-in-Ikea usually leads us going to The Curve again & again. always. meatballs + broccoli + spaghetti combo. yummy!

apart from that, i love the chill ambiance and also the indoor and outdoor scenery. we can choose to walk through the walkways, the bridges, the skywalks bridges and also sometimes catch-listening the free outdoor-indoor live performances. outdoor pathways with great lighting's & deco + indoor shop-cruisin', very appealing & nice.

Tesco also makes the cut as it makes it easy for us to grab some of our groceries item essentials on-the-go and is especially useful if he crave to make his own favourite homemade Chicken Chop, a secret recipe learned from his mother {he knows how to cook a dish a two, teehee}

Vivo, Sushi King, Kenny Rogers, Bubba Gump, Little Penang, Starbucks, little-little kopitiams & many other variety of yummylicious outlets are also one of the contributing factors of us visiting The Curve almost more than once every single week.

his favourite hairstylist/salon is also situated there :P

owh, not to forget! the movie seats, we especially love the "couple seats!" seating each time we feel like watching a movie or sometimes even do some movie marathon for the day :) and now, they haf these auto chairs to sooth our body aches, which we often spent our spare change on, before we enter the cinema.

hmmm, ape lagi eh?

as a conclusion, one stop shopping centre, is the best description i can gif to The Curve, as of now. so lovely readers, i wonder which supermarkets/malls best describes you as a shopaholic painting the town in red? :)

still a UPSR in cooking.

guess what?

at this age, i am still damn scared on making a decent homecook meal for dinner. i haf mind-planned the so called simple ingredients and visualize myself with the wok & whatnot and also what i wanted to cook, but as i reached the junction near my house, made a few calls & decided to go for a shortcut and go pick up a take-outs instead. heee.

there goes my plan :P takut tak jadii, kalau masak! takut tak bole nak makan sbb takde taste, teehee.

takpe, will make sure next time i will cook. i will i will.

p.s. okeyla, nak tido dah. gnite!

S.O.S!

anyone can help me on where i can find the code for Celcom, Call Me Tones, titled

"Jay Z feat. Alicia Keys - Empire State of Mind"

???

I dah penat cari ni, too pening already! please please, pretty please. anyone?

:|

Now I am craving for :

Cake : Secret Recipe Cake {yang mana - mana la. tak kisah.}

Seafood : Buttered Prawns

Beefy : Steak served in Waterlily or Bubba Gump or House of Pancakes?

urhhg, but? I can't!~ big sad moody face now :(

on being happy & healthy, again.

even though at this very moment of time, i am suppose to be on a strict diet, due to the extra kilos in which i am not supposed to carry around, i still crave for a major lot of food. i hate myself for being a bad ass in trying to control my calory consumption. the fact that i love to eat is undoubtedly the source of this extra unwanted kilos on my body. & the fact that i already realize it and that i need to curb it well and to also be extra cautious in my food intake is damn frickin' hard.

what i need to be now, is to haf the type of discipline that i used to haf before in getting to the goals that i haf targeted for myself. in terms of exercising and getting into a stringent of physical activities - i haf been visiting the gym {at least the gym card looks a bit rustic now, one proof that I've been pulling it off my purse for the entry la :P} and also the park for a little jog & run at least once every week. a little sweat & tears combo, there.

i haf been dealing wif weight issue since like forever now. once i am in very bad figure and there's also one point of time i am really comfortable to "climb up" on the digital weight scale and smile when i see the numbers. i donno, i guess it boils down to the fact that i need to be more of a "self-control" girl all the time. i mean all the time. never be satisfied with where i am because the moment i feel content wif the numbers on the scale, there goes the effort and the number may skyrocketed again to a figure i hate!

urhg, i hate the fact that i am rambling in this little blog of mine about this little topic which is supposedly out of this arena and the fact that i am typing it harshly as i hate the fact that i am not on my ideal weight. it sucks. this is proven because as i go into TBLA website and enter the figure in one corner of the website and calculate the ratio, it ticks __ {owh, i can't even write it in here} it sadden me.

which comes to another reason why now, i am carrying this extra weight, stress! everytime i get stress, i will go into food therapy besides the ever so popular retail therapy. urhhg, how the hell do i control myself? i am lost. shit. very deep shit!

and the fact that i am now, counting the rice as it goes into my mouth is really pathetic. i am trying all sorts of things to get it back. just please gif me the strength to do so, dear god. please. i hate myself looking this fat. i need to get rid of the extra kilos and be able to be happy again when i look at myself in the mirror. and the scale is definitely listed as one of my biggest enemy now.

boohoo!

p.s. i am mad at myself, who else do i blame other than myself?

little black grapes

nom nom nom nom nom :)

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can i outshined my expectation?

today, 02 March 2010, marked one year i am being employed {it's actually history in the making, coz i manage to curb myself from quitting}

a year ago, i was this blank, blur, naive little girl who decided that she wanted to work {& tell her mommy, about the decision}, not because it is a must, but it is just a requirement that need to be fulfilled by her which is made by MMU in order for the student to complete the course. i entered wif very little paperlessly knowledge which is experience. {there's once, while i was still studying, i decided to take a part time job & on the first day of going to work, i decided to quit, on the very first day itself, coz it is too much pressure for me to take, hence, i meet the boss & tell her that "i am quitting the job, one month notice"} now, i can think better and little by little i am understanding & studying the meaning of "dah seronok pegang duit sendiri". whenever i feel like giving up or even quit, i will make sure i think deeper than that.

little that i know, after a few months been working in this large empire created by Tan Sri JC, my eyes opened up to a whole new challenges that i can never imagine, which is totally different from the perspectives that i haf been surrounded in before. it teaches me a lot and i haf become a little more aware of the things that happen around the world {okeyla, kalau tak world pun, in life generally} other than just my three favourite combo,

"study + shop + sleep = me"

there is more to life other than those three. and the fact that i can look into a much bigger picture now, does amaze me. i never thought that i could be where i am right now. the fact that i can manage my spending so that it is spent wisely is remarkably great. before, i could lushly said that i can finish up to **,***.00 a month! now, i can happily said, i manage to just spend around *,***.00 a month. itupun, mostly semuanya essentials, not just pure waste. i am glad. i can even save some up! big pat on the shoulder kasuma!

before, it is hard for me to understand the meaning of "i am broke because it is the end of the month" but now, i haf learnt better. i do try to be independent, as much as i can, even though i know, my mom will always support me, but i will try my very best to curb my lifestyle habits, so that i will become an indeed a better person than i am {was} before.

now, i truly understand why my mom and late dad encourage me to study hard, which i am now also forcing my little sister to do so too, despite it being so hard for her. as i am blogging this historical moments in my life, after a whole wonderful & adventurous journey in my career life, i am looking into, a better career advancement opportunity, a more well refined perspectives of life and a higher and indeed increase volume of expectation towards accomplishing my education level.

p.s. i am indeed one very ambitious little girly girlfriend of yours syg. thank you very much for understanding & being there for me throughout the way :)

me & mr. potato :)

i love couch potato-ing. and the shows that makes me glued to my seat the most this season are {among others}:

Pretty little lady, Dania
Little eye-catching journey, TAR
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Little laughter, Raja Lawak
Starts on 13 March :)

Uplifting Kardashians

Motivational advert, AI

Inspirational, TBLA

Bent it in SYTYCD!

the only problem is, we only haf one Astro satellite at our rooftop, thus making the remote control famous in our little crib, especially when my little sister, my little darling, my little mommy, and myself park in front of the set. cuma sekarang, bezanya hanyalah kami berebut dalam diam, sbb now dah agak matured kan, kalau dulu sampai gaduh sbb nak hog the teevvee.

p.s. hah, malam ni sapela yang dapat pegang remote tu dulu :P

p.s.s. source of .jpg : googled.

tha lazy me.

i am so frickin' bored wif Monday, especially when i am lazy to start on any task and just wanna laze around all day.

i guess, Monday blues haf started to get the best of me and it is indeed contagious throughout the whole day. waking up late in the afternoon during the weekends makes it even worst as i feel much more lazy than ever to get through the day, today.

i hate myself for being lazy, procrastinating, not accepting the facts, emotional, and the list can expand till the Great Wall of China.

but on a lighter happier note, i am happy that i managed to fold my piles of cloth during the weekend which haf been left idle in the corner like forever, you can literally even found a cat in the piles. {my little sister laughed her head off when i say i wanted to fold all the cloth, it's that bad} now, i need to sort all that out, fast, before i scramble the folded piles again, to get to the one i want to wear.

besides, i need to learn, how to let go some of the things i haf. i haf become a girl who loses count on what she haf and it is proven when the other day, while browsing through some of our pics together wif syg, i go "eh, mana baju tu?" referring to the top i am wearing in the pic. i guess i need to clean up all the mess and maybe donate/sell/recycle some of the items. the reason i am not doing so, is because, i love all my stuff and sometimes i feel it is a waste to let it go. but i guess i haf to, sbb it is getting worst and i find myself not finding the right piece sbb it is too much work to even find the piece that i want hence making me grab just the one on top and there's once i even found some unused/untouched/unwrapped stuff! omg.

i am...

2010 has come to march. and yet my little dream have not even started yet. i am in deep black hole now. i really hope that i can get out soon. please :(