bling bling? ;p

i brought this to the office and put it on my table. one of my colleague pass by my table and jokingly ask...

buah ape ni?

bling bling?

i was like, huh?

belimbingggg.

starfruit. ;p not bling bling!~ haha.

he who holds...

he holds my hand...

during these tough times :

1) during my Degree years coz he believe i can do it. i did. Alhamdulillah.

2) during my Master years coz he knows i can finish it. i did, with flying colors somemore. Alhamdulillah.

3) during my PhD application process coz he believe i can get through. Insyaallah. *still waiting.

and yesterday,

during jogging, coz he believe i can get back into my ideal shape i had not so long ago.

now, who am i to say i don't believe in myself? i believe i can. hopefully. urgh.

opah says...

this is how opah interprets some of the items that we sometimes think is too normal and do not care of but of course not to her...

the htc

i keep on looking at my phone and keep on playing wif it, she said "asyik petik-petik benda tuuu je, ade ape kat dalam tu?" then only i realized, i did, a lot, and tak perasan pun, dah macam biasa, buka je mata tekan tu dulu ;p

the toaster

"opah tatau nak tekan-tekan tu, baik bakar atas kuali je" for me it's more simple to toast in the toaster than doing it in the kualiiii.

the aircond

"opah tanak la tido dalam bilik tu, rasa ais, macam tido dalam peti aisss, sejukkk".

the fan

"ni baru angin asliii".

hik hik.

sudden crave.

suddenly i feel like having a rotiboy :( where the hell do i get it at 1.23 am?

my cinderella story...

and the story begins....

there, as some of my lovely little rainbow readers have known, i haf enter the first chapter for the next chapter of my life and i am totally still in aww. and as i am writing this, i am constantly reminding myself that i already have a "merisik ring" wif me :)

and it was actually like a cinderella story. my cinderella story.

the day come swiftly wif only a little hush of time. one minute i was busy working and cleaning up the house, and the next minute i was asked for my hand for the ring.

we {my family & i} literally haf only two days to welcome his family to our house. neither one of us {me & him} haf any idea where to get started and what to expect on the day itself. it was madness but of course in a good way. and turning my shopaholic mode on, i manage to scuff around town wif him to get all the stuff we need from groceries to attire to e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g! we were out of breath painting the town red but of course the happiness outshined it all.

and i am one lucky girl to haf each and every one of my family members knowing everyone's own roles and responsibilities to contribute for the preparation of the day, hence the little time constraint is not really cumbersome to us.

by 12 noon on 21.11.2010 i was already getting ready for his family arrivals. i was anxiously nervous but i manage to stay calm and collected. and as i heard "Assalamualaikum" my heart beat so fast i couldn't even breath properly. heee.

i was in my room waiting patiently. i knew the time would come, but it was so long i literally was counting sheeps, dancing ducks and growing thousands of butterflies in my tummy. i definitely was in my own dreamland. and as i walk down the stairs, all i could remember was, i am walking on clouds. i felt as if i was flying. my mind flew to paris. my smile blooms like a red rose. owh, how i wish i could describe it more. but the feeling, will definitely only be known if you experience it yourself :) and of course when the ring fits, i totally feel like a little princess with a ring that hugs her finger perfectly.

the day went on smoothly and as simple and memorable as it can possibly be, for us to remember upon. hopefully the next chapter will be better.

by the time the clock ticks 12 midnight, i am already in my night pjs turning the lights off, thinking bout the next monday morning meeting. back to work, back to reality.

and hopefully my fairytale story will come to ".........happily ever after" :) Insyaallah.

lucky meow!

our conversation on the phone as i reach the groceries store last night,

"syg, ape nama brand makanan meow yg u selalu beli tu?" me

"frieskies, yang warna kuning tu, beli yang seafood, ade udang, ketam, ikan, campur-campur, kucing tak muak makan. kalau ikan je die muak-muak sikit" him

"owh, yang seafood, ha okey bye" me

"okey, bye" him

it's about our fully pampered cat. ;p it's not really ours but then the cat literally wait for me as i come home from work, so it's kind of our house's cat la. i never thought that the cat would dominate our life and take part in most of our conversation. dah mcm cat love dah, not human love ;p

there's one we found, never eat anything other than frieskies. opah yang bela die, so guess what opah did? she would bring him back and forth from kampung - kl, kl - kampung. so lucky. i haf a name for him, it's meow abang. sbb meow adik kurang manja, can eat anything, so die kena tinggal kat kampung. keshian diee. heeee love u la meow abang!~ ;) couple of nights ago, opah told me, he curled up somewhere at my feet, and slept wif me. no wonder i felt very ticklish at my feet that night. some cat love story that only cat lover would understand....hehe.

21.11.2010

i am too happy, i am out of words. it'll be a draft in my head as of now. i am totally overwhelmed with joy. will surely publish the detail soon. Insyaallah, as of now, Alhamdulillah and many thanks to everyone! :)

just a little hush...

opah came on Aidiladha. as usual, she will literally bring her whole house here. i mean, she can never travel light. she even brought her kuali~ it's not that, we don't have any, it's her nature of bringing her own e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g and feel happy about it. well, now, u can never laugh at me if i do not know how to travel light syg, it's in the blood! ;p

but, this Aidiladha she came wif something extra. unseen, unheard, she came wif a plan. a plan that is so sudden she just blurt it out during dinner. i am happy and all, but a little nervous too of course. but it definitely is part and parcel of me realizing that i am all grown up. so stop behaving like a little merajuk-queen!, kasuma. :)

litle by little, i am learning.

dad, do u know that i have come to the age of realizing and understanding the meaning of life? well, little by little, i am learning, still & always. {but, you should be proud of me dad, & i am sorry for always merajuk-ing everytime you forbid me from doing something}

like for example these :

1) for not letting me work in a McD or anywhere while i was waiting for my SPM result {all you do is tell me to study hard and i was so lazy!}

&

2) for not letting me drive. and bila abah takde umi told us {me & little sis} that you love us so much & you were so scared of losing us, if anything bad were to happen if we drive ourself everywhere {darah muda, temper, nak drive laju-laju je, so die takutla}

back then, all i do is rebel and merajuk and marah you je sbb tak bagi i kerja & drive. i am so sorry.

now that i am already working i understand why you forbid me from working in my young age and told me to wait for the right time & why you don't let me drive when i was a teenager and you drive me wherever i wanted to go. i truly do.

apparently it's too late to let you know how i feel *tears :'(

p.s. little birds please do let him know. thanks.

us, now.

last night before calling it a night, we had a little quarrel about cat.

yes, cat.

silly ain't it? he loves cat. and i do too. but, our perception on loving cat may sometimes differ which always will lead, to us fighting. it's pathetic laa, i think.

but the main reason, i assume/guess/think we normally would always fight or quarrel is because we're too tired to layan each other.

simple example :

he called

him : hello syg, syg buat ape tu?

her : hai syg, i tgh tgk amazing race ni, k bye.

she called

her : hello syg, syg buat ape tu?

him : hello, adib tgh tgk movie kat pc syafiq ni, syg buat ape?

her : owh okey la.

him : k bye.

& that started i guess somewhere after we both started our career life {before, sampai my dad marah when he received the phone bill, reaches four figure, everytime ;p sorry abah :)} but now, penat, balik rumah, just wanna relax and unwind. malas nak cakap over the phone pun. ish, i guess this gotta stop. fast. before it hurt us.

maidless & madness.

thanks daddy for working hard enough to let us stay in a nice little castle of ours. and thanks Ya Allah. i am truly grateful.

cuma, masalahnya....

we are maidless now. the house is too big for me to take care of alone and i really-really can't keep up with the chores that is randomly randomize each time i come home after a hard day at work. and the dust? omg, i can't keep up wif you dust, you keep coming back! kesian my back squatting down looking for you and my pink vacuum cleaner sucking you in like every two weeks. urgh.

and it seems that, the chores never ends and i even get frustrated when i lift up my own plate to the kitchen as there are piles of dishes waiting for me to clean em', not just my plate :(

we had a stay-in-maid before. and it all started after arwah abah meninggal. she crushed our trust towards her {and now we are still traumatized to get a new stay-in-maid, eventhough i believe we need one badly} when i saw her hands crawling in our bag. not just that, the groceries and the necessities were also gone even before the next pay comes in. i mean? who might have been eating when there's only a few of us at home? tapi food takpe lagi. yang paling ketara, detergent, takkan one pack could not last till at least one month? i mean, i know i ade banyak baju and she keeps spinning the washing machine, but one pack for like half a month? that's insane lady. and baju-baju i hilang lagi, i know i haf lots of compartments and like throwing it everywhere around the house, but i remember my baju ok?

she also haf self proclaim-ly become like the owner of the house by bringing her husband in even when we are not home. it's too much. but we just let it be because we don't want to treat her like a non-human and becomes so strict to not let him in. we let her do whatever she wants, eat whatever she desired, and even sleep whatever time she pleased. but. she's the one who breach the trust.. none of us want to tuduh die dengan sewenang-wenangnye tentang barang-barang and cash yang hilang {even dah terbukti pun} tapi our patient is gone, we were so frustrated already and finally we decided to talk to her nicely in order to let her go, of which she only accept it after like sebulan kita cakap. she don't want to leave too! omg. we were too nice to her and i guess that is the main problem. haih. lesson learned for being too nice.

and to our surprise, when we send her off to the airport {dah buat sume tu pun, we still send her to the airport, ntahla, kitorang tak suke aniaya orang, tapi orang yang nak aniaya kitorang, kenapa? :(}, her luggage exceeds the quota. and guess what was in her super extra big luggage that she wants to carry home? our little treasure that she have been piling up before. and i even found my favourite sweater :) God is great kan. Terima Kasih Ya Allah.

and now, that we haf no maid, the groceries sometimes remain untouched sampai two months pun ade ;p haha, malas masak la pulak. and the detergent can last long enough, i started asking myself, eh i ni tak basuh baju ke? ;p

okey, back to madness, i sekarang, kerja, and bila balik nak rest, so bila tgk rumah berselerak, of course otak pun jadi berserabut. so susah. nak amik maid takut history repeat itself. and day-to-day maid pun susah sangat nak cari. peningnya.

i need help and another sets of hands to run the house. macam mane ni? :'(

earloops & mindloops

i listen to these a lot :

1) heels storming the floor

2) fax machine chirping

3) printer's warming up and printing noise

4) door lock & unlocking

5) chairs swiveling

6) keyboards trampling

7) mouse clicking

8) tea making process

9) phone ringing

10) people complaining

11) people get scolded

12) people laughing

13) puncher punching

14) stapler stapling

15) air conditioner hushing

16) people sneezing

17) door bell ringing

18) smart card tapping for coming in & going out

19) shoe breaks for a quick chatting

20) spoon tapping

21) table stomping

22) high five - ing

hmmp.

&

i truly miss these a lot :

1) the sound of the waves racing to get to the beach first

2) flight attendance calling in for passengers

3) tour guides explaining

4) the haggling process in a foreign night market

5) counter ring bell

6) fresh air hushing

7) fine dine fork & spoon dancing on a scrumptious plate

8) barbecuing under the dark sky

9) walking on a wet swimming pool tiles

10) collecting tennis balls after a mad swing

11) a good laugh

p.s. I'm stuck. oh no.

kasut...

do u know that one of my nickname is kasut? it started in high school when a friend of mine created a shorter version of my name... and it stuck wif me up to this very moment. ;p ohh, well, that's basically the reason behind the nickname. suke ke tak suke? ntahla..

tapi adakah kerana nickname itu menyebabkan saya menjadi obses terhadap kasut-kasut?? haha. hmmp.. mungkin?

& syg pun suke cakap i ni macam little emelda marcos, based on my shoe obsession.

soooo,

tak salahkan kalau saya ingin membeli lebih banyak kasut kan, to live up to the nickname right? kasut? imelda marcos? kan kan kan? hehehe.

so, let's go shoe shop syg! u cant't stop me anymore, i dah jumpa reason-reason yang agak kukuh~ heeeeeeee.

so, below are some of the pattern & design that i kinda want to add to my collection. tak sama pun tak apa, ala-ala, ade rupa dekat-dekat pun, is good enough :)

nak ni, for office.

ni nak, hmmp, for office/jalan-jalan.

ni nak, for a fancy dinner?

ni nak, for jalan-jalan jugak *ni version comfortable la.

ni for lepak-lepak mamak ke...

ni for my everyday *love this kind the most!

ni for a stroll in the mall.

ni for hmmp, saja-saja?

ni for, hmmp, nak jadi muda balik? haha.

& lastly ni, hmmp, nak jadi cantik macam die bole? *haaa, tetiba je ;p

p.s. illustration depicted from google. credits!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

just got back from a very long & happy day out. it was unplanned and a little ad hoc, but it turned out great :)

started the day chilling wif my bunch of girlfriends at a diwali open house. trashing & digging the random past stories and laughed it out wif no bits of shame. perhaps because its true. haha.

watch a movie in between before meeting up wif his bunch of friends of which i thought i'd be just a nuisance at first but ended up blended well wif them :) trashing & digging out the past stories as well! haha. if u happen to drop by this little blog of mine, i'm happy to haf such a good companion like all of u!

and now all i wanna do is sleep without brushing my teeth nor washing my face, like the good old days. *dulu lagi teruk, terus je tido dgn jeans tu, now at least i changed into my pj's dy ;p*

k nite!

p.s. updated from my htc, hence the unjustified and straightforward post. heeee.