DW3, Daycare, SMC.

umi is undergoing a minor surgery now while i am waiting at this daycareward for outpatient. i am hungry and i don't know what to eat. i feel numb to sadness and immune to pain. i'm distracting myself away by sharing a thing or two in here.

so, umi being a little vain pot that she is, she did her manicure and pedicure while waiting just now. she said she doesn't want to be judged lazy or dirty or even ugly by the doctor. such a vain she is! ;p

being someone who wouldn't settle for less and want more and more, she manage to make me morphed to someone better and better and would not want to settle for less too. before this, SPM pun i sambil lewa je. imagine this, me : umi, i got four flat! (for my Master's final result) umi : owh, Alhamdulillah, congratulations. me : smiles happily. (other mother would throw a feast if they heard that i suppose, but not umi. you know what she said after that?) umi : okey, now do your PhD. me : okey and feeling a little bit sad. can't she acknowledge that a little bit more? urgh. but that is just her way, of pushing me to be better, which i manage to capture after years of being her daughter.

sometimes, i think it is magical the way she's pushing me to be orang yang berguna dan berpelajaran (and she almost succeeded because i already am here and all i need to do is not be lazy and just go through all the hardcore presentation and exam) which is good for my future, Insyaallah, but at times, of course, being a normal human being with feelings i would feel the pressure. of getting things right. of being better. of being perfect. and that's why sometimes, when i do not know what else to do, where else to go, or the study is too hard to handle, i cry.

now, where was i, umi is doing her minor surgery and i am super hungry. till then. your pray for umi's good health and my success is all i can ask for, for now. coz, i want her to still be around to push me harder. i don't mind, coz she is my mom. million thanks! i can't pay you, but Insyaallah, Allah will.

via htctp2.